a day of thoughts
while the west have holland V and 6th avenue, the east has siglap and frankel (or the whole stretch of east coast).
took a long walk from my home to the next nearest mrt station to top up my ezlink card. didnt feel that it was really near.. a near 20 mins walk from where i reside and the hot weather doesnt make it easier. chose another route to the mrt station; frankel avenue.. as i walked, i couldnt help but notice the type of houses and cars that were there.... a rich area in singapore where again shows the affluency of her people. then it made me wonder.. wat happened to me? since young, i had always been ambitious hence my big ego.. haa..
i always wanted to be among the top in my class and it was no mean feat considering the school i was in. mayb its true that when u are with the best u strive to be like them and eventually become them. my family background equally gve me the pressure to strive. i was given a comfortable life.. never real worries to bear other then studies.. said that when i grow up, i will own a car, a house and definately a maid since i never didnt any household chores besides those u had to do when in school.. duty roaster... when in Jc, i even declared that i wanted to start a business and then be successful enough to get a car of my own and drive in the University campus to show off my wealth and capabilities.. if i was to fail, i didnt mind going bankrupt at the age of 19 as i can still get back the money. at least i bought the experience and the joy of going through it.. every now and then then, i was hatching a business plan with different frens. hopin that the different mix of frens would spark a different chemistry and inspiration.. there were times when i did find a good mix but becos of various reasons (or mayb excuses), things just didnt come thru.
the drive didnt die till when i was in the University... the flames were fanned even more as my confidence went up as i was entering the U; where the cream of cream was there. i love being in the crowd of the best. made me feel like i was the best myself. yes, my frens skeptism made me feel self-consciencious. though i was forced underground. i still had the burning desire to succeed.
but after my graduation, i suddenly felt lost.. where was my confidence and drive? my fire seemed put out.. no spark seem to survive. wat happened? how did i lose myself? i dont know.. i cant remember.. was it my failure of obtaining my honours or my goal in life have changed? i kinda gave them all up when i found a love in my life.. after 20 yrs of my life.. i found something that i love doin.. archery.. or is this another excuse to my pending decisions in my life?
took a long walk from my home to the next nearest mrt station to top up my ezlink card. didnt feel that it was really near.. a near 20 mins walk from where i reside and the hot weather doesnt make it easier. chose another route to the mrt station; frankel avenue.. as i walked, i couldnt help but notice the type of houses and cars that were there.... a rich area in singapore where again shows the affluency of her people. then it made me wonder.. wat happened to me? since young, i had always been ambitious hence my big ego.. haa..
i always wanted to be among the top in my class and it was no mean feat considering the school i was in. mayb its true that when u are with the best u strive to be like them and eventually become them. my family background equally gve me the pressure to strive. i was given a comfortable life.. never real worries to bear other then studies.. said that when i grow up, i will own a car, a house and definately a maid since i never didnt any household chores besides those u had to do when in school.. duty roaster... when in Jc, i even declared that i wanted to start a business and then be successful enough to get a car of my own and drive in the University campus to show off my wealth and capabilities.. if i was to fail, i didnt mind going bankrupt at the age of 19 as i can still get back the money. at least i bought the experience and the joy of going through it.. every now and then then, i was hatching a business plan with different frens. hopin that the different mix of frens would spark a different chemistry and inspiration.. there were times when i did find a good mix but becos of various reasons (or mayb excuses), things just didnt come thru.
the drive didnt die till when i was in the University... the flames were fanned even more as my confidence went up as i was entering the U; where the cream of cream was there. i love being in the crowd of the best. made me feel like i was the best myself. yes, my frens skeptism made me feel self-consciencious. though i was forced underground. i still had the burning desire to succeed.
but after my graduation, i suddenly felt lost.. where was my confidence and drive? my fire seemed put out.. no spark seem to survive. wat happened? how did i lose myself? i dont know.. i cant remember.. was it my failure of obtaining my honours or my goal in life have changed? i kinda gave them all up when i found a love in my life.. after 20 yrs of my life.. i found something that i love doin.. archery.. or is this another excuse to my pending decisions in my life?
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