how do i move on.. when i fell so hard in love w her? from the day
she was born, she laid on my palms, so small, so frail, so adorable. already so
small, she would move ard w her eyes still closed, so picture her running up
and down when she was given the freedom... for her puny size and spunky
character, we wanted to call her chilli padi but she was such an angel w no
spark of a temper.. small in size, small in temper but big in heart! we named
her TINY.. together with her brother, i knew my life was in for a great
change..
what a change it was to be. my happy pills. Tiny was always there
for me. yes, she was my co-habitat-or during my growing up years. Regardless of
my mood, good or bad, sad or happy, being in a bitchy mood and all, she never
failed to comfort me. she would just come by my side and be herself. she just
came, offering herself defenceless to me.. Her senses went beyond
her sight and smell, she just knew when I needed her… most.. I was always receiving,
never returning.. I need her a lot.. and now..
she was the smartest and cutest dog one could ever have. We taught
her tricks and toliet-trained her. But given my kind of temper, I wasn’t the
most patient but she borne w me and rewarded me with her intelligence. She led
her brother, Teddy, along to learn as well.
1) I wake up to her greeting me at the stairway
every day.. she would wag her tail and wait for me eargerly to come down. She attempts
to go up the stairs but she knew that that was the no-oundary sign for her..
but as I get nearer the ground floor, she’ll just dash up a few more steps just
to come to my lap.
2) When I head out, she peeks at the doorway
to see me off..
3) When I’m home, she makes her way to the
door to wait for me to open it and see her face once I open the door.
4) She comes only when we are seated down on
the floor. She wants equality as well. Then she’ll go onto your lap and lets u
rub her tummy.. then she smiles so
happily with her tongue out playing w her paws w u.
5) She only goes to your lap.
6) She loves playing ball, walk walk, apples
and tomatoes. She actually knows these words and responses with complete enthusiasm
when u say them. You start by saying.. ‘what do u want?’ and Baby girl will
prick up her ears from even her most sleepy position and come to u. this greedy
girl…
7) She sleeps like a human being with all her
four paws upwards at times
8) She sticks out her tongue when she sleeps
9) She hate the sound of thunder and always
acts cosy w u when she sense that rain is coming
10)She comes to u when u are the only one at
home.. she just rubs her back against your legs and stands on her 2 legs and
reaches for your knee
11)She is knee height and so tries her best
to scratch u for attention
12)She walks on her 2 legs to beg for her
treats
13)She actas all sad when u try to hut her or
when she knows she might have done something wrong. Her ears goes down, tails
between her legs and walks towards her cage. To make up w u, she’ll crawl and
sit on your lap.
14)She’ll walk over u when u are lying on the
floor.
15)She sniffs at you when u smell her.. she
just smells so good. Her fur is top grade! Soft and shiny,.. beautiful.
16)She has natural curls behind her ears..
the curls are whitish brown with a braided wave.
17)Her tail opens like a fan.. opening out
the whites in it…
18)I use her wagging tail as a fan and as a
blusher..
19)When she is coming to ucause u made her
to, she’ll sit in front of your face with her butt facing u.
20)Her ears drop back when u pet her head.
21)U ask for kiss kiss and she’ll give it to
u
22)She endearingly licks her brother clean
between his eyes and ears.. everyday
23)She will even lick u when u are all
smelly..
24)U can carry her up and down like a baby..
and she’ll resign to fate and let u have her…
25)She jumps ups your shoulder when she is
excited.. she will even pounce on u.
26)She hates u to put a sock over her face..
the way she takes it out is super cute
27)She loves scratching the pillows on the
chairs.. her form of pillow fight
28)She can walk wo a leash.. she’ll be right beside
u.. she wont walk beyond your shadow.. u stop, she stops.. she’ll run after u
if she is too far.
29)She wont let others walk her if u are ard.
Even if u tug at her leash.. she wont let u move her..
30)She hates being in a car
31)She knows home when u say, ‘let go home’..
she’ll prick up and head towards the direction.
32)She knows the time to eat.. 6pm everyday..
she’ll start to act up and wait at 5. She’ll ‘break’ thru the kitchen doors. Once
she knows the maid is done w cooking, she’ll bark for attention that its her
turn to be fed after the humans. She knows she’s not allowed in the kitchen
after cooking but still goes in.. and when u go in and stare, she will look
remorseful and go out.
33)U nv can get angry w her when she smiles
at u. she’s always happy.
34)She has her favourite spots at home where
she sleeps and relaxes.
35)She knows papa is home by hearing out for
the car sounds.. and starts to wait w teddy at the door. Teddy will bark while
she walks super happily to the door.
36)She has a happy stride when she’s happy
and excited
37)She grabs my attention by putting her 2
paws on my knees or on the chair that I am sitting on.
38)She runs after her own tail.. in circles..
that’s her trick for u.
39)She barks only to guard her territory at
home from strangers
40)She is so mild, she nv bites.. even if u
put your hand in her mouth, she nv bites it. Even with food, she gently takes
it from your fingers
41)She goes to mummy for her breakfast bread
crumbs
42)She’s our doorbell at home. If no one
comes to the door, she’ll be there to get the attention for u w Teddy
43)She’s one of a kind dog, a special breed,
my limited edition dog..
44)U could just squeeze her.. cause she
looked like such a soft toy
45)Baby face.. my baby girl
46)She gets jealous when u show more
attention to Teddy.. she’ll squeeze into the gap between u and Teddy to get u
to stroke her
47)She’ll go the toilet for her bath time
48)She’ll let u cut her hair even though she’ll
struggle w u once in a while.
49)U just wanna hug her and kiss her when u
see her
50)She hates brushing her teeth and cutting
her nails
51)i like to disturb her by saying
she's ugly and stupid.. and all.. but she knew otherwise.. i wanted her
attention too..
52)She scratches my toilet door when I am
inside. Funny how she likes my presence even when im in the toilet. She doesn’t
allow me to shut the door at her. Well,, I guess I ‘punish’ her by shutting her
w me when I’m doing my ‘big business’. When im in physical pain of having a
tummy ache.. she was there..
53)Tirelessly, she’ll be there.. so many so
many..
She loved me… so unconditionally, everyday.. in my worst days and
happiest hours, she’s there… nv argues w me, nv fights w me.. only playfully
waits for me.. finds me.. always so positive..
Im not prepared to let her go, there were no signs.. just suddenly,
she had a seizure after making her way home from the docs after a check up. How
can I accept this. She knew who I was even though she was in a daze, she was so
excited to see me when I came into the room.. I knew I had to step out to calm
her down. In her final moments, she was so weak, she found the strength to look
at me.. she still looked happy.. she just had that happy face… I couldn’t do
it.. I couldn’t let go.. I let the doc keep going to keep pumping her heart,
her lungs ad giving the shots. But I knew… when I saw the fluids turning red
coming out from her small frame.. she couldn’t even hang on to me when I tried
to carry her.. she felt like jelly.. she just gave way.. her body.. then. I knew..
I had o let her go..
She was the only 1 good thing that happened to me.. I can take all
the unfortunate accidents, the physical pain, the heartaches that are momentarily,
because, she was my pillar.. how do I now.. move on.. w/o her. Shit… I needed
her so much more than she needed me.. as tiny as she was.. she was my
everything.. i loved my days because of her.. I knew she’ll always take my
side... only..
Void.. I do feel useless w/o her..
I miss u.. TINY.. why?!!!
