I was Skinned alive.. Literally!!

so after the whole foot saga.. there are the regular check-ups and the medicines that i have to still go thru.. after the drip and the stay in hospital.. taking medicines and going for dressings would be a piece of cake.. and so i thought things would go easy on me.. and so.. i thought..

i have to take my anti-biotics (in pills now) regularily. every 6 hours to be exact.. and how regular i am stickin to this regime. so my first dose of the day would be at 8am, then 2pm, then 2am, then 8am.. blah blah blah.. man.. can u imagine the sleep i am having!! to be faithful to anythin kinda makes one wanna stray after a while..

my torture comes during the morning doses.. so everyday.. i try to stay up awake till 2am.. to pop down 4 pills. trying to be the faithful employee (i still force myself to work. come on.. u think after being only 5 days old. i dare to take my 11 days MC!!), i still went to work.. so i have to be up by 645 to wash up and get to work by 830 plus plus. so from 2am-645am.. technically, i have only abt 4 hrs of sleep.. man.. i am a 'sleeping beauty'!!! i need my beauty sleep... ok... so i get suggestions abt setting an alarm clock at 2am and take an early night.. when u are sound asleep.. then an alarm clock wakes u up just to take medicine.. can u imagaine my crankiness.. *(this reminds me of an April Fools day stint that my fren pulled on me once sometime ago.. he actually woke me up on the phone at abt 3 or 4am.. just to ask me to take a leak at the bathroom!!! damn it.. keith.. i'm still gonna get back at u for it!!). i am a light-sleeper.. and to go back to sleep again is some feat.. just for a 5 min act.. i would stay wide-awake for at least 2 hours before finding myself in dreamland again.. but my sleep is disturbed!! and i start to be cranky the next day.. sprouting nonsense or if not pretty much brain-dead... will ans everythin and anythin, seriously without thinkin.. my mouth and brains would be workin at diff timings..

another condition to takin these pills is that i have to eat them 1 hr before meals.. or i mus hav an empty stomach.. as the medicine works better with nothing in your tummy.. so i suffer the afternoon timings as well.. ahhhh...... so no lunch from 1-3pm.. so its either i hav my lunch at 12pm or at 3pm.. but my lunch time at work is at 1!!! and i have to endure the cries of my stomach and bid my collegues farewell when they go for lunch.. ahhhh.. the only time i have peace is during the 8pm slot.

y make myself so pathetic then??
I rather do this then to be back on the drip.. hav a full check-up this thurs... and there's no option to fail that check-up!! no way do i want to find myself in the hospitalisatuion list.. no matter how much i praise the staff there.. no way do i want to be there again!! i have to be cleaned by then..

medicine conditions---take every 6 hours (u better do it!! or..), 1 hour before meals (empty stomach.. u hear!!).... hiaz.. (it feels more like a threat prescribtion)

then here comes the next part of taking-care-of-my wound regime---DRESSING!!
i have to go to the polyclinic for daily changing of my dressings.. so again.. i am trap at the queues.. can u imagine the queues at the polyclinic?!! i wonder why do i hav an appointment card when i have to wait anyway.. going real early in the mornings seems to be a better choice.. since there are goin to be lots of people anywaym at any timings.. then at least be the first few people.. be the 1st crowd.. anyway.. i am up already.. have the 8am dose.. so.. feeling really sleepy.. i drag myself there...

1st time at dressing.. it hurts alittle.. the guaze is stuck to my wound.. so they hav to remove it.. no.. dont think savagely.. they are pros at removing and puttin on dressings.. they aint gonna rip it off.. f they do.. trust me.. they'll lose their teeth. anyway.. they'll soak the cotton balls in saline then drape the liquid on the gauze.. to have it soaked so that its easier to take it off.. but did they also realsie that the liquid is soaked up by my OPEN wound.. hmmm.. so theres a stinging pain.. nvm.. still bearable.. after the change.. i am ready to be back home..

2nd visit... again.. there at the clinic at abt 730.. just change the bandages.. then can go home sleep.. so no prob.. i was.. wrong again.. my wound at my foot (the one that got me a tic to the hospital), wasnt looking too good still.. doesnt seem to be on the road of recovery.. the nurse calls the yellowish pus-zy thing on the wound as 'slough'. its just dead skin.. so i was saying.. 'isint it good? it means that the wound is drying up..' 'nope... not really.. the slugh either turns black.. and drops off.. it gets pushed out of your wound when your new cells starts to build up.. but then.. it can be covered by your new skin.. then your wound mayb infected again.. and it'll take longer for your wound to recover.. cox its obsrtucting your new skin to cover up..' 'so.. we need to remove that slough..' 'WAT!! REMOVE MY SKIN!!'....

before i could protest.. the nurse took out a needle.. a thick one and some tweezers and started to prick at my wound.. man.. it so hurts.. the needle is to help get an opening so that the tweezers can pull out the dead skin.. but it mus be done w extreme care.. cox she cant pull the skin too much as it may enlargemy wound and cause the wound to have another wound as well.. its like getting tattooed.. man.. i wont call it the pricking sensation.. but rather the pricking torture.. u have to stay so still and time seems to be crawlin.. i was shaking my right leg due to anxiousness and to take my mind off it.. but its impossible.. someone has my foot at needle-point... she only managed to pull out the sides,, still hav a long way more.. man.. but she can feel my agony.. and decidedto give some time-out.. hav to be back there to do it again. ahhhh....

so my wounds were wrapped up again.. and did i say i was sleepy?? nope.. after that trauma.. i was damn awake.. and was limpin home again.. my wound seemed to be pounding with every step i take.. it feels swollen.. now i know why being skinned alive is one of the best torture methods in the past.. pulling out dead skins can hurt too.. not those after a sun-burnt but those which have a medical term to them, called, 'slough'!!!!!!! i have experienced it..

NEXT APPOINTMENT--MONDAY... ahhhhh.. more skin 'grafting'.. but removal only..

i have to go thru all these.... and again.. that bright red lighter comes flying out, mockin me..