Priorities..

wat are my piorities in life? suddenly, everything seems in a blur. i had initially thought i had everythin worked out, everything planned.. my life revolved around something at least though the occasional bumps and hits.

now i feel a sense of loss, with this loss, some pain and loads of guilt. as i went on with my life, my planned route, i lost sight of my other areas of life.. no.. not the finer things that i long for... but the small details that made me and are part of my life. they have always been. how did i lost sight of them? how care-less and heartless i had become?

i cant turn back the clock, no.. not even a minute back.. that minute was precious.. cox i forgot to cherish the hours that had passed me. my eyes are dry.. am i controlling? am i going nuts? or is this my way of handling stuff? just totaly oblivion.. yes.. i am an escapist.. i am in my own world..

WHAT HAVE I DONE??!!!!!!!!

I can be that nice!! (self-praising since no one gives me one)

Some how my schedule just keeps changing, I guess that’s the nature of my work. Was supposed to see the therapist on Wednesday. However, as I was needed at work by my boss, I had to change it to Tuesday. Luckily, there was still a slot for my last minute change. Weirdly enough, now it seems like I can go pick the guys up from the airport on Wednesday. Their flight back should be in the afternoon. The time slot that I would be free as I would only be required to go back to office much later in the evening for my meeting.

So.. Is it really fate that I should go pick my team-mates up? It’s really a choice actually. I had actually made the effort to sent them off (I tend to do that all the time; sending and occasionally picking my team-mates whenever they have a shoot outside of the country). I am that supportive!! While for my case, people tend to message me. Though I do have some real good friends (not archery team-mates) would send and pick me up. So touching.. Then, why do I make such efforts? I can go to the extra lengths to do such things. This, I, myself, can’t seem to figure out. Strangely, I am ok with it. Guess its cause I like such simple gestures. And though people may not do the same for me, I just know that I want to and will do it for others..

Awwww……. So sweet!!! Hahahaaa….*VOMIT*